Day 27-30

Sunday: Rest-day that day, the ache in the abdominal muscles after the core-session the previous day wasn't something you wanted to play around with. Also my thighs felt a bit pumped out of energy after the spinning-session.
Monday: Went to the gym again and worked out with the ususal machines. Started off by spinning-interwalls for 15 minutes with the levels 14 respectively 10 but had to decrease both two levels after five minutes. Never overestimate your own ability just because your friend has thighs like Ben Johnson and a determination as great as a robot's. Added one round of repetitions on almost everything and also started to do back liftings- 10x4- to prevent future injuries (some clever guy told me that a strong back might be good for you but I don't know, maybe he lied).
Tuesday: Went to see our normal floorball practice and was just about to start the physio therapy when I was interrupted by a man from the national radio station's sport section. Honestly, I knew this a week in advance so I'm sorry if I sounded completely surprised. He asked me (as the team captain and because our coach thinks that I'm the one who can talk to grown ups without feeling uncomfortable) about the current measures our club is taking to enhance the chances for the a-teams to climb in the charts and also a bit about my injury and upcoming surgery. Have I mentioned that I'm getting an arthroscopy on Tuesday? No, don't think so but that's the case. Thus, if you understand Swedish you can listen to Radiosporten on P4 sometime next week and you'll hear a spluttering giant baby in falsetto, that's supposed to be me.
Wednesday: Went to my physio therapist this morning and for once, I actually got to exercise. Primarily my thighs and afterwards I could barely walk downwards in stairs normally. She said that we were not going to make anything harder before the surgery and that I just have to keep on going with the training programme I have. Booked in a new meeting with her next Friday, three days after the surgery when the knee hopefully has started to loosen up and gotten rid of the stiffness. Came home from a one-hour spinning session a couple of hours ago and God it felt good to sweat like that! Maybe spinning isn't the best you could do to improve your gone stamina, but the thighs are now drop dead. Note to self- never train the heck out of your thighs and then expect a spinning session to be as a sunny summer's day by the ocean.

Ledsen Anders om jag överdrev lite inom den där parentesen om radiointervjun men jag tar mig den friheten eftersom du tvingade mig att göra bort mig. Hoppas du har det bra i Spanien, ta med lite värme hem.

Day 19-26

Issues with the account, quite strange since my usual blog's been working properly the whole week. Anyway, I'll give you a quick resumé- last Saturday to Tuesday I didn't go the gym but did some physio therapy at home. Nothing extreme, felt a cold coming thus my body was pretty tired. Went to the gym on Wednesday and started with the normal machines, didn't increase the weights though, just stuck to the programme I used the week before. I did manage to squeeze some spinning interwalls for 20 minutes in but I really noticed how lame my muscles were. No training on Thursday and yesterday my friend forced me to come to a spinning/core-session, 30 minutes each. Sadly, the music playlist at the spinning wasn't that challenging so my stamina was barely worked on. The core-session was however awful, we were shaking like aspen leaves after 15 minutes and I'm not sure if we even "beat" the fat woman infront of us which was our common goal. Although if I am to defend ourselves, my friend's a goalie and I'm a cripple so losing that battle might be justified.

Now, the fun part of this post begins. Yesterday I also went to the knee specialist and what a professional I got to meet! Told her my version of the story, was asked to take my pants off, the knee was examined for barely a minute and after that she was pretty sure that doing an arthroscopy is the only way to really get to know what type of injury it is. According to her, you can only tell that there really is an injury on the cruciate ligament by doing an MRI but not see which sort of injury. Therefore, the easiest way is to go in with a camera and take a look and meanwhile clean some shit up inside of the joint capsule which she thought was the reason for why I don't have optimal movability. She continued:
- So, I'll put you up on the priority list and we'll have the surgery within 14 days.
You say WHAT? 14 days?! That's nothing! But I'm happy, not complaining at all, just glad that they want to fix it as quickly as I want to. Looking forward to it!

Day 18

Spent 1.5 hours at the gym and am pretty impressed of how much the muscles have been activated after only two real sessions. Changed a couple of thing in the training programme, such as increasing the weights and number of repetitions.

• Started off with spinning interwalls for 10 minutes to warm the knee up and get the circulation going. Level 12 for the fast-pace-interwalls and level 8 for the low-pace. Much better warm up than the stair-machine I used last Monday since my lack of stamina appeared even clearer.
• Hip abduction (earlier known as "the girl-machine"). 64 kg, 12x3.
• Hip adduction (same same different name). 36 kg, 12x3. Felt a real improvement from last monday when I barely could do 10x2, very nice to notice progress!
• Leg extension. Increased from 10-15 kg, 12x3.
• Leg curl. Increased from 5 to 15 kg, 12x3.
• Leg press. 70 kg with two legs, 12x3.
• Leg press. 30 kg with one leg, 12x2.
• Lifting of pelvis including roll with pilates ball inwards. Didn't use my arms to support the stability this time, much harder and even better exercise for the core. 12x3.
• Crosstrainer interwalls for 10 minutes, level 10 and 8.
• Some more spinning but now in a sitting-position where the arms aren't used. 10 minutes of interwalls on level 8 and 6.

Day 16 and 17

No training yesterday, don't ask why (but if you persist doing that, I can defend myself with aching groins. They're never going to get back to normal).
Thus, did I do any physio therapy today? Yes. Was it sufficiently? Hahaha hell no! Fought (or denied, whatever) the snow chaos and then forced my mom to promise she'd come pick me up at where our team practises just so I could sit there, pretend and trying to convince myself that I was actually doing something of importance, do my friend's homework and buy a coffee. In total, my training consisted of 2 minutes of pelvis-lifting. Good job, keep it up. No, seriously, I'm going to the gym tomorrow after school for a couple of hours and I'm sure I'll be able to trick someone to accompany me on Sunday too.

And yeah, by the way- HEJ ANDERS! JAG HAR INTE ÖVERDRIVIT NÅGONTING I DET HÄR INLÄGGET, BRA VA?

Day 15

That was yesterday. Woke up with a fantastic pain in my groins, probably from working with the "girl-machine". Fantastic because I've missed aching muscles as results of hard training. Anyway, I went to look at our floorball practise and got my friend to accompany me with the physio therapy. To prevent my coach yelling at me, I brought my indoor shoes. Last time I tried to jog just for fun he told me that "For being so smart you can sometimes be so insanely stupid". Therefore, I put my shoes on and took a few laps. One word: wonderful. Don't know if I'm even aloud to jog but you don't have to tell the people in charge. Continued with my regular physio therapy but increased the numbers of what I did from 10 and 15 to 15 and 25. However, the highlight of the day was when my coach asked us if we would want to be defenders during a special exercise- using a stick! Being on the court! Involved in motion! Haha you can't imagine how excited and motivated I got to get back as soon as possible.

Day 14

A.k.a My-first-day-as-a-gymperson. Oh my God that was so much fun! An what a feeling I've had these hours afterwards, about the same as after a really good floorball training or a game. My body feels like a chicken fillet filled with some feta cheese-mixture straight from the oven, yeah, that's the feeling. You can't imagine how much I've missed this states of both mind and body after one month and five days without exercise that actually makes you sweat. My muscles still feel tense and swollen (as in pumped) in the same time as they are completely relaxed. In conclusion I once again feel that I am my body.
So, what did I do to be this satified? Well, first I asked my physio therapist to give me som exercises this morning and then I did them (not joking, it's true):

1. Started off by walking in a stair-machine. Interwalls on level 12 with 77 steps/minute for ten minutes. Good warm up to get the circulation in the knee going and also to work that abscent endurance.
2. "The-girl-machine", first pressing the thighs outwards and then inwards. Working outer and inner thighs. 40 kg when doing it outwards and 25 kg inwards. 10x3.
3. Leg curl (contraction of knee, working the hamstring), 5 kg when doing it with one leg. 12x3.
4. Leg extension (working the quads), 10 kg when doing it with one leg. 12x3.
5. Leg press (working the core, thighs, knees and calves). 70 kg for two legs and 30 kg for one. 12x3.
6. Lifting of pelvis with feet on pilates ball, body from 140 to 180 degrees. To get stability from the core and increase stability in thighs and knees. 12x3.
7. Same as above but now rolling the ball beneath the body. 12x3.
8. Squattings with medicine ball between knees. Until I got tired of it.

THIS FEELS FREAKIN' AWESOME!

Day 13

Bad luck? Nope, not at all. Went to the gym a couple of hours ago and bought myself a membership for one year! Expensive as hell if you don't use it as much as you can, but I see no reason for why it shouldn't help me to get back to normal training and floorball even quicker so I'm pretty sure it'll be worth it. Besides, many of my friends already go there regularly which definitely will motivate me- training is so much more fun when doing it with others (that's why I play a team sport...).

Day 11 and 12

Crappy motivation these two days, no motivation at all in fact. I guess I could blame the lack of time (which I really have had) and my social life but physio therapy only takes 20 minutes if I do the quick version so I assume I've just been lazy. Bad, I'll shape up, promise. However, I'm not in shock anymore and have come to accept the fact that, yes- my injury is quite severe but nothing will get better by complaining and a mental breakdown. I'll just have to do the best out of the situation and hope for a comeback within a couple of months!

Spoke to the doctor

My meniscus isn't broken. Yay! you react. I don't, an injury on the anterior cruciate ligament is far worse. Shit shit shit life sucks, I hate this.

What we learned from this:

• Don't let your brain get certain of things you don't actually know, it'll only be messed up when what it thought was right, proves to be wrong.

Day 10

HARDCORE session a couple of hours ago! I increased the number of repetitions of all of my exercises, increased the time I did some of them, invented som new ones (e.g. juggle with three balls when doing one-leg squattings on the inflated pillow to make the brain focus on something else and thereby exacerbate the balance) and kicked my team mate's asses when challenging them with what I was doing. Do you know what the best thing is? That I notice the difference of my thigh strength and it really feels amazing. After only one week of hard training, I physically feel that I have activated more muscle fibres and that especially my hamstrings have been strengthened incredibly. I feel that I have much more control of my legs and knees now than ever before and that is truly satisfying, to see that if you do a thing regularly and consistently it does improve. That, dear readers, I will definitely carry with me when I get back to floorball again. If I want to improve my shooting, all I have to do is to be serious when I do those exercises. If I want to do that extra run during a game which might be the difference between a victory and a loss, all I have to do is to push myself mentally during the practices over and over again because sooner or later- I will naturally do it as if it was the only thing I have ever done.

As simple as that. Brains are easy to fool once you get the drift.

Day 9

Yesterday in other words. To be honest, I didn't do any of the exercises since my thighs barely allowed me to walk and made me look like a real cripple again. A cripple without crutches that will say. However, I noticed something that I kind of have noticed even earlier but is way more concrete this time- I'm constantly tired. Ever heard of the "Zombie Walks" in different big cities all over the world? Yeah, I feel like one of them. In the beginning of the week I couldn't really figure out why I'm tired all the time, but then yesterday it hit me- I haven't exercised properly for exactly one month. Now how insane isn't that? Thus, me being tired isn't peculiar at all, it's just that my body isn't used to being this inactive and not getting the endorphines on a regular basis.

What we learned yesterday:

• Exercising does make you feel more alert.

What I do, Paint-version

Paint is kind of fun. These are the main exercises I've been told to do by my physio therapist. I have some more but they're not as important. Over time, I'll develop these exercises and increase the amount and number of repetitions.

Day 8

Okay, doing an MRI wasn't as cool as I'd expected it to be. Fortunately, I got the laugh of the day when I saw the result after the not-so-charming lady in charge had told me to get undressed and put on a long, loose and adequately transparent shirt/dress. Yes, we're talking high fashion. Went into the room with the x-ray-thingy and laid there for, what, half an hour maybe? I even think I fell asleep, that's how undramatic is was. They said I'm probably going to get the results from my doctor within three-four working days and that would be Friday but since we all know that that's not reality, I hope for Monday or Tuesday next week.
I like this, I like when things happen and I don't have to stand like a jerk knowing nothing of what's going on with my own body. Even though I haven't got the results yet it does feel better mentally when you at least think you see the light at the end of the tunnel. I mean, now it's only two steps left-

1. Get the result
2. Treat it.

Sort of. It's however definitely better than two weeks ago when no one knew nothing. Right now, I'm gonna get dressed for some workout! Did my exercises intensively for a whole hour yesterday so my thighs are still not functioning properly but I guess I'll survive!